Prayer to a River Spirit

Ahoj Pán Hornád, (Hello Lord Hornád)

Veľkolepý riečny duch, (Grand river spirit)

Our guardian and judge, 
Strong father, the nurturer.
You wrap around us like a snake
Just as dangerous, but gentle.

Every splash of water,
Is a heartbeat over stones,

Is a wild mountain song, 

With incomprehensible words.

May people treat well
Your banks and beaches.
May they revere your strength 
Not to feel your anger. 

You fuel this land 

And wash the filth away.

I pray you have a fair hand,

Please don't make us your prey.

I humbly pray for you 

Please keep us safe from ill,

So I will get to sing you praises

While living on this sacred land.

 

21 November 2025 

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Hii, Lycaina here!

As you can guess by the title, this is a prayer I wrote for a local river spirit that resides in my area. The river spirit here is insanely present, strong and beautiful. Lord of the River, together with Lord of the Railway Bridge, create both a physical and energetical barrier on the path to my house that is impossible to ignore. 

If Hornád desides that today no one gets in or out, he'll just flood his bank and there will literally be NO road to go through with a car. Only other way to reach my home would be on feet through a forest that very awkwardly sits on the hills. It gets very dangerous there during rain or snow, so Gods forbit Hornád becomes moody in winter - then you might be screwed for Gods know how long. I'm very honored that he has let me through the guard as I was a complete stranger to this area (I was preparing and later on moving in with my wife to her cottage). Reminds me I haven't visited him in a long time. I should really do that when the weather clears out here. 

I love having a lot of names

Heya, Lycaina here.

I've never liked my birth name. In my mother tounge it means "Love" and it always felt like a mockery of me. I didn't have a lot of luck in my love life, and/or in loving myself, until recently. So my resentment towards it really grew in my young years. 

Now I honestly feel neutral about it, I simply got used to it. I don't feel much of myself in that name though. It feels more like a legally and systemically required "normal" name. While I'm in Slavic rooted countries it doesn't pose too much of a problem, but if I were to move long term to, say, Germany, I'd seriously consider changing my name. Exactly for the reason of making it easier to have day to day interactions with the society. So for me my legal name became a social interaction mask - something to make other people comfortable of identifying you by. 

As the time went on, as a teenager I got introduced into the Internet and started to be known by my made up alliaces. They were pre-teen - teenager silly, like "Ender" or later "DarkEnderHero" (yes I was really into Minecraft and Herobrine, how did you guess?) and others. My online and irl friends never really called me by my real name and here might be where my ceparation from my legal name truly started to grow. 

Nevertheless, in the recent year I found myself in a personality crisis, where I didn't feel like my legal name is really reflective of me. Nor was the "conventionally easy to use nickname" that I had at the time. So with my wife's help I started testing if I like any other name. 

We tried Ray for a few months but it didn't stick. Then my wife called me by one of those "cute names" like sweetheart or sunshine in English, but she said an equivalent of that in Slovak. And that's where S. name stuck to me. It really feels lovely sweet and safe being called by that name by my wife. I really, really like it. And that is why I won't say the full name here. It's simply too personal and intimate for me.

And that's probably why it doesn't feel right asking my friends to call me by that name too. 

My bff always called me by a jokish name, like "Sherlock", "Duder", "Clown" etc. And it always felt..right? The nickname changed with time so maybe it feels appropriate because the way she called me changed with me and the circumstances that happened in our life. For example now she calls me Clown, because I started out a Discord server called Clown Circus that recently blew up in popularity in our friend group (which I'm so fucking happy about like yes finally my baby is being used). And it feels...right? And comfortable. So for now I won't be making myself a friend name, cause Clown works perfectly for me so far lol.

I also have separate names for my accounts for different websites. I tried staying true to one nickname - MorselMint throughout as many websites as possible for recognizability, but I had to change it for Steam recently (and I actually feel much better about the nickname ForestMint than MorselMint) and for this blog it just felt right to have a separate name.

In the near future I also want to find a name with which I'll talk and identity myself to Gods. A name that only they will know and hear. Because they deserve an intimate and deep connection like that.

I'm honestly kind of happy and proud of myself of having many names. For some reason it almost feels like making myself multifaceted in a way. It feels good. 

First post!

 Hi everyone! 

For this blog my name is Lycaina and here will be my ramblings. It's so peculiar to have just a full on blank page to write on to make a post lol. I'll introduce myself better in the next post after I get my ass to my PC.

I'm making this blog in hopes to decentralize my online presence from the bitch ass social media. One lovely creator opened my eyes to realize that we're putting too much of us on these pages all the while we can't be searched or achived online. Tumblr where I'm mostly at is better at this, cause I can actually search myself up and customize it Almost like a blog. But there already was a time where Tumblr was in shambles (from where I'm not even sure if it has recovered fully, I have a very tight info bubble there) and no one says it won't be in shambles again

Anyhow yay, new blog :) 

Look at this picture I took on Halloween eve